theaddiction

shifted!

2009-02-24T21:12:00.002+08:00

everyone is so cute.
for wondering why I didnt update my blog.
Pam claim that I forgot the password to my blogger.
look....here is a perfect piece of evidence to prove that my puny brain is not putting me down as a dumbass.
haha (:

shifted over to
www.maltandhermatchacravings.wordpress.com

malt and her matcha cravings.wordpress.com

till then, take care my friends!

Formula one.

2008-09-21T11:56:00.001+08:00

Hello formula one. Time to rejoice. :-)

Cajole.

2008-09-13T09:47:00.005+08:00

Akin to squeezing a bursting with goodness orange
Im squeezing mummy sister boshy girlfriends boyfriend work school all into a no-more-no-less-predetermined-24hrs cycle.
The ending?
The bursting with goodness orange taste so saccharine, sweet-smelling and feel so fantastically overwhelming. :)

cartoons are HAHA.

2008-09-09T08:47:00.002+08:00

Dont you just love cartoon that makes you go HAHA?

Butterfly garden.

2008-09-06T01:24:00.006+08:00

The Butterfly garden in Terminal Three is beyond magical.

I stepped into the garden with my heels and phone against my ears.
I remembered hearing your voice
telling me all that I need to hear.
I heard what you said
but I couldnt bring myself to believe.
The throbbing pain in the afternoon is etched snugly to my head.

I couldnt comprehend how you could ever bear to do that to me?

Rendezvous Hotel.

2008-09-01T14:52:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday my dearest Jane.

p/s: send you all the photos soon.

MG. Hotpot culture.

2008-09-01T14:29:00.004+08:00

check your mailbox for the link to download all the pictures!

:) Love you all, Mothergardeners!

Orientation

2008-08-30T07:40:00.001+08:00

Friday saw me going through orientation. Im delirious cause orientation means school is round the corner. :-) my textbooks are freaking thick. The only motivation not to dump it in the bins and walk freely is the desire to get pretty grades. I want to get really pretty grades. And pretty grades mean all HD. HD equal to higher distinction. Pretty eh? Im blogging from my phone though im sitting right infront of the com. Talking about being weird...

mendingthebroken

2008-08-13T16:33:00.003+08:00

wiggle your baby toes

flap your mickey ears

and see how everything goes from here :)

I didn't know I love you that much, so much, till now.

skin food

2008-08-13T16:22:00.003+08:00

Skinfood BB cream is good.

especially when you hate leaving the house with naked skin but yet

hello! putting make up is meaningless when it comes to

maybe....

just buying chips from the mini mart

or walking boshy.

which is only a mere 10mins.

haha.

and it smells so yummmmy :)

"A skin-care and make-up in one, this cream leaves your skin feeling moisturized while it corrects your skin tone. Your complexion looks naturally air-brushed, clear and fresh! Rich with aloe, it excellently soothes skin and provides moisture. Also contains SPF 20!"

fresh coffe and danish

2008-08-06T13:37:00.002+08:00

My roving wandering mind wafted me to a world of obscurity darkness.

Like printed black ink on a piece of blank white paper
Overtime, despite storing it, hiding it in a tightly sealed box,
the words
slowly clandestinely fade away.
It grows paler, fainter and it will eventually die away.
What is left is what you have, what you are in the beginning.
The beginning where no inks are smeared on it
No colours but no dirts as well.
A blank paper, so wholesomely untainted.
A blank paper that once again
desperately wants to be wanted
long to be needed.

When you really think harder,
You'll see what can possibly be printed onto it.
The trees, the road, the huts or maybe the runway.
and when you think once again, twice harder,
you might ask yourself
Why not try out my favourite colour like shades of red white or blue?

I don’t want to be a blank white paper
with nothing to my name.
no memories, good and bad.
No recollections to fall back on.

I'll rather be stained with black patch at one small corner or edge
When it is time to cut away
I'll move on with no regrets.

Maltida

ps: if you ever do understand, you must be as weird as me.

we adore boshy:)

2008-07-31T16:13:00.008+08:00

:)

2008-07-21T22:28:00.001+08:00

because we're meant to be together :)

milk tea in the dead night, is yummy.

2008-07-20T00:17:00.003+08:00

Blog-hopped.
For a long lengthy time
I’m curious, unusually, in how everyone else has moved on with their life.
Guys, needless to say, are mostly enlisted into another life. The army life. How dreadful can that be?
And well, a handful of girlfriends are studying in SIM.
Which keep me thinking why the hell did I choose Kaplan in the first place?
But I told myself, no regrets, Kaplan might sound like some alien place to pursue a degree since everyone else opted for SIM when they cant get into local Uni.
Oh well, once again, I’m convincing myself that I’ll do much better in Kaplan than elsewhere. Pursuing something that I like, cost wise, distance matters,
It sums up to how Kaplan is a better choice, at least to me?

Oh well, I think I just cant bear the thought that boyfriend is heading to SIM, a different place as me. =(

But still, analyzing the distance part, literally, we two have always been pretty far apart?
You are living in another part of the world all the while. Its amazing how we get to know each other. And I adore how wonderfully miraculous everything turns out to be.

I’m looking forward to next month.
Cant wait for piano lessons to begin, yet again.
The feeling is like deliriously odd?
I feel so young once again,
It reminded me so much of three years back,
Sitting in front of the piano with dear Beatrice (I think that’s my teacher name)
pointing out all the blunder that I’ve made.

But unlike last time, I’m determined not to just pass my grade8; it has to be a distinction.
My uncanny brain this time will not trick me.
This as said will be the best gift for myself, next year, my ever 21st birthday present to myself.
The gift; a stepping stone to achieving my small little dream.

Life is gonna get busy next month.
Life is gonna get busier the month after.
but we'll all hang on.
For darlings,
we are not so young afterall.
this is akin the last phrase of our schooling life.
and so,
we'll all do well
complete all that we have wanted to do
before we step out into the working world
with all the capabilities that we have
we will
erm
conquer the world?

Well, you might be laughing,
but im gonna achieve that
provided the world dont end that soon.

pollution is bad, the world is gonna die.
where will our hardwork lead us to?

alesia

2008-07-07T23:17:00.004+08:00

Ale,
the short convo with you just now really leaves me in thoughts. Cause for the past six years, I never once seen you fret over emotionally-related issues. The only thing that you really harp about and get oh-so-panicky about is exam? And that’s all, I guess. Haha. You’ve got a pretty blessed life. =)

And I believe your life will even be better! Don’t worry about school life, it’s just a matter of time before you get used to it. Really. Even if you take a long time to adjust to it, its okay, cause there is no hurry at all. Not that you are going to stay there for many years ( I’m certainly not gonna agree to it!)
Know that you wont be alone alright. No one will bear to leave you alone. I love you as a friend, and I believe that others will too. They will love you for the exact same reason as to why I love you.

Its funny how when sis ask me who am I with….
And I said: “oh, Im with Jodie alesia they all!”
Its witty how Im so used to having you around. Its like you, me, Jo and Jane.
Remember during sec school,
If one of us didn’t come to school, everyone will start asking where is the other girl?
Its like the four of us have to be together (or should I say three? Since Jane was hanging out with others at that time?)
We were once inseparable, and so we will continue to be undividable.ever.
I believe that we’ll meet up at the end of this year,
And we’ll
Play mahjong through the night
Stayover at your house
Sleep on the same bed
Throwing your stupidsmellyminiature boaster everywhere (did you bring it to aussie? I bet you did though you told me you won’t!)
Hang out at Hougang Mall
Eat dinner there
Meet at Hougang Train Station and head down to some pub to drink
Maybe we can try conning some pub like Timbre again?
Haha
No, we’re not going to do that.
If not Jane and Jo will be pissed
when we start whining how guilty we felt

and so girl,

should they tell you

you'll never pull through

Don't hesitate, stand tall and say

I can make it through the rain

P/s: I hope this doesn’t give you goosebumps though goosebumps are cute lil things!

Why would we forget you after all those years of joys and laughters?
Right now, im missing you, you know?

Have you received my postcard?
Haha.its taking way too long!
But I really like sending postcard
And I want to receive postcard too!
Maybe you can head down to Australia TousimBoard to get free postage postcard? (if they even have a tourism board in the first place?haha)

Keep in touch in every whatever ways!

sillyxuan =D

2008-06-25T17:13:00.004+08:00

How silly can Xuan be?
(extracted from boyfriend's blog)
maltida.
thank you for every single thing that has happened to us
since we held hands.
yours.

(extracted from Xuan's LJ)
maltida.
thank you for every single thing that has happened to us
since we met at mg.
truly yours.

xuan is the cutest daylight stalker.
in other words,
a more cruel and brutal way to put it,
xuan is the lousiest stalker ever.

I heart both silly bum bum.to the brim.
and thats because they are really silly
so be proud of your silliness
and work hard on being even more silly
but on a second thought
i dont think they need to even work hard
naturally silly
i must say.

2008-06-14T19:21:00.000+08:00

And should they tell you
you'll never pull through
Don't hesitate, stand tall and say
I can make it through the rain

Haunting

2008-06-07T23:27:00.003+08:00

The Kite Runner written by Khaled Hosseini is so well written.
The whole book is astonishing, flawless.
It is so different from the usual lovey-dovey tale or live-in-the-ailen-world-for-a-day kinds of story.

RongXin just said that she wants to discuss the whole story with me after I've finish reading the book.
cant wait to hear her thoughts and tell her mine. =)

oh.people.you really have to read this book.seriously.

thanksboyfriendt.

2008-06-05T19:32:00.004+08:00

History repeated itself.
I have lost the motivation to blog once again.
It just like a few years back,
there was a period of time
whereby I would be glued infront of the com
documenting my days vividly
snapping photos
capturing the moment that I am afraid will be long gone
engaging my bedtime chatting to 13 people on msn at one go
switching from windows to windows.

Those days are pleasurable.
but pretty much hollow.

It is futile to blog
as there is only person that
I really want to relate my days to
and well,
because that person is him
there are healthier ways
than through dear blogger.

but I am not going to be loser again and close down this blog.

These days have been very engaging.
filled with the usual odd working schedule
evening Jappie class
rollingvogue
and date out with bf and gfs.
i like it when my days are packed like twenty fat men squeezed in a HDB lift.
at least
in this way
my mind would be too exhausted to think more than it is allowed to.

oh.and I will be taking a doublemajors tourism and hospitality and marketing management under Murdoch University.
and it is recognised by STB.
so most likely I'll be heading down to Kaplan tmr to sign the paper.
Since I already said that
I'll make sure there is no turning back.
though my fingers are waiting
for a moment
whereby I am in a daze
so that
it could move swiftly across all keys
and hit the
backspace.

I dont want to regret
taking that course
and
I know I wont.

there are some things that leave me unsettled
but yet I couldnt say it
because it is just me.
me and my uncanny brain
me and the oversensitive side
me and my irrational absurd illogical thinkings.

I dont even understand myself
and so,
it will be a miracle if someone truly understand me.

it can be just an ordinary simple thing
but it changed my whole inner feelings
as quickly as it goes
reflected through the human touch
I tell myself
dont reveal it
the uncanniness of the mind
played tricked to my senses
and there i am
like some childish brat.

my mind drifted away
the silence is oblivious
the emptiness is palatable.
and once again
I will curl into a ball
tell myself
to takes things only when it comes
but Im scared for it to come.
the fear is overpowering
enveloping itself upon me
triumphing as it sings
Im scared I will give up
everything
that I longed to have
everything
that makes me a happy girl now.

and so,
all i want to do
is just be a selfish brat
and love myself more than anything else.
because
im so scared
that the hurts inflected will put me through the misery
that I once went through.

maybe,
I should just snap out
of this pathetic self of mine.
because everything is more than alright now.=)

Webbie

2008-05-29T11:44:00.005+08:00

and so....
we've moved to
www.freewebs.com/rollingvogue

New A&F tops dresses and shorts!
exciting isnt it?

online shopping is au'some.
online shopping at my shop is even better.

haha.

oh guys! for the A&F Berms and Polo Tee,
for the time being,
go www.rollingvogue.blogspot.com
we'll be moving it into the web pretty soon! (okay, keat will be moving it, im just a useless bum)

=)

Rollingvogue

2008-05-25T08:29:00.003+08:00

Hello people!

Please visit www.rollingvogue.blogspot.com if you like Lacoste apparel.
oh. If you happen to be the measly group of people who don't fancy Lacoste at all. (I hope you're not)
Still, Please visit it. It might be a (good) turning point for you.Haha.

Thanks everyone, anyone!

=D

2008-05-19T17:33:00.003+08:00

no matter what is going to happen,
I told myself,
just remember to breathe
cause i know
only breathing will keep my heart beating.

i want to drown myself in dark choco chips icecream now.
.

Bims

2008-05-17T07:34:00.003+08:00

I heart all my Bims for they are the most lovely divine exquisite individual on earth.

each to her own personality

yet we mingle altogether with tremendous fun

from frantic project deadlines

to poking fun

the greatest pleasure in one's life.

MOF-ed with the girls.

the dessert are appetizing.

much better than those at shokudo.waraku.

Its already the 2008era

the 1999 neoprints are so oldschool

but i like.

and will always do.

i feel like savouring hokkaido ice-cream now.

Sarah's blog

2008-05-14T18:35:00.004+08:00

Since the day Pam introduced me to Sarah's blog (she lived in California if im not mistaken.)
Im pretty much addicted.
During days whereby I am left with nothingness
I'll blog hop
and Sarah's blog will be the top few in the list.

But, Sarah doesnt know that a stalker like me existed.
and never did I intend to let her know.
cause
its all just for please-help-and-kill-me-from-all-the-boredom that Im having thingy.

and so,
I read Sarah latest entry a moment ago.

(extracted from Sarah's blog)

I was facebook chatting with one loyal LJ friend, and she mentioned that her friend at work saw another co-worker reading my LJ. How many people really read this?! Why would you read this? I'm just curious...I've seen other journals with much more artistic value or more insightful entries.

Well, the loyal friend is dear pammie.
and the friend who saw a co-worker reading is actually me.
haha.

It happened at Orchard SVC though.
I was walking past this malay girl (who is pretty much engrossed in using the com)
I peeped
and exclaimed
"you read Sarah's blog too?"
She said "yah! since Sarah's is in high school, I have been reading for years"
"wow! you know her personally?"
She shook her head "nope.Im a stalker."

hahahahhahaaha.

I believe that if all the "secret stalker" confessed to Sarah that they have been reading her blog
I bet the list will be freaking long.

oh.and I commented to Sarah that I'm a secret stalker.

have you ever wondered who are those reading your blog?
loyal or not,
you will be taken aback by the truth.

2008-05-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

Im feeling keyed up for Singapore Art Festival. (though inner artsy talent doesnt exist at all.)

The opening show is the Water Fools by Ilotopie from France.
The (fabulous) storyline is a mystical and magical journey of a man arriving at Spore's popular water front (they meant Spore river actually, haha) in a sputtering little car. (so cute eh.)
His car break down and so he gets out and read a paper. (haha, he is one freaking calm thing)
Meanwhile, a passing cyclist sprays water into his face............
and then his head suddenly burst into flames. (omg! this is what makes me so keyed)

(sadist. i like.)

Phantasmagoria and whimsical water creatures loom from the river as fireworks unfold in an aquatic extravaganza.

AHHHHH.
IM SO NOT GONNA MISS THIS.

23rd - 25th May
8pm
Boat Quay

But,
23rd May is 7pm.

and its free!!!!!!!!!!

tell me, tell me, if you are oh-so-thrilled bout it.
we can all have a good time laughing at the explosion of a head.
haha.

and there are so many musical and performances for the whole festival. (starting from 23rd May till 22 June)

oh.dear pam and tami.
did we agreed to watch a J.S performance months ago?
I forgot is which one though.
haha.

2008-05-03T11:02:00.003+08:00

I've been losing track of my days.

I tried (hard) to backtrack

but to no avail.

Blame it on how unfortunately small everything that I owned is and that include my miniature brain.

Blame it on the number of braincells I have which is relatively countable.

Blame it on external factors like having

homogeneously similar brained boyfriend and absent-minded friends like you-know-who-you-are.

haha.

maybe I should stop pushing the blame to every molecules.

it is tiring.

oh.I remembered hanging out at Mind Cafe with the girls.

boardgamed again.

there is a game called sorta.

whereby you'll have to make funny noises

like oinkoink moomoo baabaa meowmeow.

Jo kept going meah meah instead of baabaa. (these are the sounds make by a sheep incase you havent figured it out).

she is supposed to go baabaa since the sheep in the game goes baabaa and not meahmeah.

yesterday was productive.

Collected my harrypotter lookalikes robes.

I wanted to put it on at thom's car to show-off.

he said no way.he is not at all interested.

I told Keat that I want to put it on for him to see.

he said that it will be such a turn off.

but still.

I put it on.

The robes is gorgeous not because it is a graduation grown (whats the big deal of graduating with a diploma? hello! it is only a dip!)

it looks like something from HarryPotter universe.

very cool.

Helped out at Keat's mummy shop.

he is such lazy bum.

If I happen to open a shop in the future,

he will be the last I employed.

and we air-hockeyed.

it had been ages since I played that.

beams.

pain

2008-04-28T11:40:00.002+08:00

Its funny how a small paper cut can hurts so badly.

far more worse than a raw bloody gory abrasion.

A small paper cut is so tiny that it is barely discernible to the naked eyes.

it is not unsightly as it cannot be distinguished.

unlike the opened up wound complied with dead skins,bacteria and viruses.

though paper cut hurts till I teared when Im soaping my hand.

I still rather a paper cut to a raw bloody wound.

ugly is depressing.

to the extent that I would rather bear the intense piercing pain.

p/s: I think I'm just plain bored at work. =(

but I really got a papercut.
erm.a few weeks ago?

soccerfreak

2008-04-28T06:59:00.002+08:00

Look how gleeful boyfriend is after he managed to transform me (with all the costumes and brain-washing) into a ManUnited fan overnight.

I think his happiness bags have multiplied to hundred times folds.

=D

hellokeat.

2008-04-15T11:52:00.002+08:00

happy first keat-da-niversary!

cant wait to see ya tonight.

=D

byebye.

2008-04-10T13:10:00.008+08:00

Well, it feel kind of strange to be talking, munching, sipping without my braces.

I actually tried wearing it back again.
haha.
but of course that is impossible.

and I thought of my nightly-wear-rabbit-rubberband-routine-before-i sleep.
I find it so cumbersome last time yet
now when there isnt any need to wear
i missed it so.

and yes, my teeth is really straight now.

oh.and im so happy that the first person who saw me barcesless (not counting Dr.Chong and the nurses)
is keat.

and surprising, the second person who saw it
is Alverina. (not counting those random strangers)
Bumped into her at Times bookstore where she is helping out her friend.

=D

and the first food I ate is
spoon laska at Queentown.

GEE!

I ended up doing all of these after Jappie with pammie.
oh.I forget to zap my scores.
and the last banana is eaten up by either sis or mum.

040408 Midnight Boardgames @ BoatQuay.

my favourite game.
cause it is a game for vampires.
haha.
but seriously. it is superb.
some sort of memory games with a really pretty nice layout.

and we all got really excited playing this dino game.
haha.

oh.and xuan.
i missed...

going punggol park

making breakfast

walking doggies

sitting at the void deck with you.

I'm so glad that you're no longer sad bout the loss of your phone.
more sweet messages will come along alright.
from sweet people
like.......

HAHA.

oh.and I caught a glance of boyfriend's neighbour who is a Jappie.
a pretty and youthful one.
clad with cute adoring jappie uniform.
one of these day
i'm so gonna check her out

=)

.

2008-04-07T20:12:00.002+08:00

being naive.is like an incurable fatal terminal mental disorder.

=)

2008-04-06T20:15:00.002+08:00

Ten reasons why I am feeling so delirious now:

1. I met weird tourists. They dress weirdly. speak weirdly. they are just so weird. I like. (oh.I am actually at work now)

2. Boyfriend ring me up for a while and his daddy told him to go eat dinner. after 5 mins, he called, and said he gobble up his dinner so that he could talk to me. sometimes, he is just so adorable.

3. In three days time, which is this coming wednesday, Dr Chong will debond my braces. After like 2yearsplus of wearing it

4. Cornflakes Choco is heavenly.

5. I just finished writing my chapter one. (I stopped writing like one month ago?) Well, I have no inspiration then. but now, yes. maybe because I'm too bored at terminal three.argh. Chapter one is boring. you've been warned. hopefully chpt two is better. I've no storyline at the moment anyway.

6. I'm going to write chapter two after this.

7. After three days, without my braces, I can play the harmonica again.

8. I've decided to add on streaks of honeybrown to the chocolatey hair that I've now to make it look more delicious. After doing that and having it for a few months, I might consider dying it jet black once again.

9. Boyfriend and I found new games to play - suduko and crossword puzzles. so for the time being, I'll not get thrashed in connect four.

10. I received an sms from my junior whom I thought long forgotten about me.

1 and a half hour more to knock off.

=D

April fool.

2008-04-02T11:49:00.007+08:00

Received a text from my sweetest girl at the weirdest hour of 2am.
"where on earth have you been? havent been blogging and havent been seeing you online. hope all is well sweets."
I smiled when I read the message. genuinely.
though I'm in much pain from the periodcramp.
It came around that time too.
which caused me to curl up into a ball, making all sorts of unimaginable sounds.
but the sweetness overwhelmed the pain.
It's always the simplest thing that are of great pleasure.
like how girlfriends will confide in you, be it the world's tiniest issue.
and how boyfriend immediately call you to coax you to sleep when he realise that you're in pain.
like how girlfriends despite their neverending busy schedule, still call.text.andeverything. to make that your exsistence is here.
and how boyfriend would call at 4plus to wake you up for work though he knows I have got elmo to wake me.

Notice the difference in the tenses for girlfriends and boyfriend.
haha.

they are all gems.
precious little stones.
whereby I'll cherish and love as much as I could.

anyway.Jean. (If you're reading this)
the April Fool day joke is so not funny.
I was eating Mac at keat's house.
and
I ended up chewing up my french fries without tasting it.
seriously.
I really thought you're in love with me for a split second(okay, it is a freaking 30mins i guess)
hello, you told me that I should have figured out that it is an april fool day joke
but girl,
my boyfriend figured it out. and I told ya right.
and you still happily tell me that you're being serious.
hahahahahahaha.
cant blame me for thinking that you love me.
cause......
i know you really do.
I'm too lovable to resist.
HAHA.

oh.and my dearest bims,
remember the game that we played at TAS.
whereby we choose someone as our ideal girlfriend among all of us.
we should play again.
cause time changed everything.
the difference in our choices will be damn interesting I guess.
and for a moment I thought of Clyde.
haha.

Yesterday was deliciously good dear.
thanks!

=)

Boshy's one year old birthday.

2008-03-25T13:13:00.007+08:00

Time flies akin a blink of the eyes.
Boshy turned one year old 2 days ago.
When we first got him, he was only 2months old.
now he is a big boy.

Somehow he seems to know that it is his birthday.
All the presents, snacks and outings.

He received an igloo-look-alike sleeping house.
and a random stuffed toy that Sis and I don't fancy.
and manymany snacks.

oh.and he received a ton lots of wishes, kisses and hugs.
Fortunate little puppy.

He loves the igloo.

I think the igloo makes him sleepy though he is not.

We brought Boshy to Pets mover farm at Pasir Ris.
It is near Ericsson Pets farm which is Boshy hometown.

and we were talking about my cousins doggie.
and tada,
we bumped into them.
They looked as shocked as we were.

Both Isabelle and Elijah are only Primary school kids.
yet,
they are so tall.
I think we are all of the same height,now.
I couldn't dare to picture next time.
all the puberty will makes them shoot up even more.
It will be worse than watching a horror movie.
cause this is reality afterall.

=(

and thats their beloved MOMO.

Boshy and the cute little Shi tzhu.
it is so tiny.
I love cuddling it and its owner is so good-natured that he doesn't mind that.

Boshy being a scarly cat refused to undergo the training that will makes him more intelligent.
haha.
he just want to run and mess around with dogs that are as cute as him.

This place is really fun.
I like the feeling of being surrounded with animals. (okay, there are only dogs there.)
and I like hanging around with Isabelle and Elijah.
Little children are a bundle of joy.
They makes me feel that........
Life is not such a dread after all.
Its easy, just live through it.

and at such tender age,
they are already avid animals lover.
Its amazing.
I remembered fearing all kinds of animals when I was younger.
Screaming and wailing at the top of my head when some furry things come near me.
haha.
But I've always like hamster.
The way they twitch and twitch their nose is so cute.

Elijah.
This boy loves lion dance.
and so it is not surprising that he did that to boshy the moment he saw him.

Thats Ben Ben.
He is huge! (okay, which golden retriever is small?!)
oh.he is such a friendly big thing.
he wouldn't mind if i climb and ride on him, I reckon.

Seeing all the little doggies in the showroom is so heartwarming.
they are such darlings.
but...

in their world, it is so superficial.
The cute dogs are the one that will be carried home by their new owner.receiving all the love and warmth.
The rest will be left in the cage, for a longer time, or perhap, for a lifetime.
and
the worse of all,
those that have illness and sickness will be put to sleep without any consent at all.

Well.It does not only happened in their world.
The world that we are living now, are just this way too.
People always claimed that inner talents are important.
but are you that naive to believe it?
Two girls,
one drop dead gorgeous
one just a plain Jane
went for the same job interview with the almost the same qualification.(Plain Jane is slightly better)
Without hesitation,
drop dead gorgeous will get it.

Who will really be bothered with the slightest
difference between the 2girls?

Pretty boys, pretty girls and pretty things are just so adoring to look at.

Dear Boshy is now top ten in the chart.

=D

and it is so delightful that even stranger makes the effort to vote for him.
cause he is just oh-so-irresistably-adorably-cute.
(okay, i should stop praising him.haha.)

I'm so weird that even my toes look weird.
that second toe is longer (much) that the big fat toe.
it suppose to be shorter right? (I remember someone telling me that)

but nonetheless,
boshy still love it all the same.

and I miss working at airport.
though 2am shift always make me look like zombie.

haha.
its so sunny that we feel that we're melting.
seriously.

mummy's birthday.

2008-03-22T23:45:00.007+08:00

Mummy turned 49 on the 19th of March. She and Pam's Mana daddy shared the same birthday date though. (but different year yah, my mum is younger.haha)
We bought Goodwood Park famous durian cakes and puffs. oh. and the mochi choc ice-cream stick. Goodwood Park's savories are really bagus.

=)

Boshy is game for good sweet stuff.

i like moshi ice-cream.the choco mousse inside is so mouth-watering.and it looks so chubby.
so adoring.

haha. i can see that Mummy was really happy with the midnight surprise.
we chatted through the night.

Mummy is endearing,
though
she is oh-so-naggy
and sometimes
just so stubborn
sticking to her own way of thinking.

but,
I love her.much.

We treat Mummy to Kushin bo for dinner.

That night,
I had 5 stomaches.
one for the teppanyaki.
one for the tempura.
one for the snow crab.
and two for the desserts.

haha.

My offdays are well-spent with hockey.boardgames.movie.talking.and more talking with the one who has the biggest ears. Sometimes, you know, you reminded me of a brown honey bear (not a very cute one though, hahaha)

sorry bims.for forsaking you girls.
and Ceci, I heard what happened though I'm not present that night.
please, please,
for once,
dont be stubborn anymore.
It is more of a necessity than a choice.
so, don't think that way anymore okay.

Love you girls.

my dear xuan,
I cant wait to chill at your house again!

oh.goodness.i miss everyone so much now.
and i can't stand the fact that I'm penniless now.

argh.

oh.and hello all. vote for boshy okay!

http://sg.88db.com/sg/Services/Post_Detail.page/photos_av/snappostvote_my_pet_s_a_star/?PostID=263811

cause the leading doggie right now,
is not half as cute as boshy.
seriously.

haha.

thanks in advance!
Loveya!

my addiction.

2008-03-17T13:16:00.004+08:00

Mummy, sis, thomas and dear boshy all dragged me out of bed when I actually slept at 3plus.
I'm so wiped out.
they are so cute.
they claimed that they don't understand why keat and I like bringing Boshy out to Botanical garden.
and so Thomas drove all of us there.

Botanic garden is pretty in the day.
but even prettier in the night.
where everything looks a tad more mystified and spooky.

and I didn't realised that there are so many cutie animals surviving there.

Mummy sis and thomas thinks that botanic garden is not at all that au'some.
its just like Bishan Park, they said.

but still, i like botanic garden.
cause i can somehow sense your presence there.

=)

Went Botak Jones for lunch.

and Boshy kept whinning his cute little furry head off.
he ended up spilling his food all over the floor.
and so we fed him our butter bread without any butter
and coleslaw without mayo.

Cleo bachelors event is fun with girlfriends around.
and it is even better with Hossan Leong hosting it.
haha.
i really think that he is the most interesting (guy) among them all.royally.

I really do feel really delirious when I am being with you.really.

I mentioned the word 'really' thrice.
and that goes to show that I really do mean it.

haha.

i.miss.you.lots.

Happypill

2008-03-13T21:46:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was too illustrious to be mentioned.

Our lazy weekday mood caused us to miss the extensive Thai food that I'm craving for.

But its okay.

it is the companion that really makes a difference.

and it had proven to be so.

=D

Dramatically eventful

2008-03-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

Last night was dramatically eventful in the least expected way.
Well.not an au'some big surprise since meeting up for the past times had always been rather drama mama.

Thomas was great. He drove me down to Bouna Vista to meet Keat.
but alas, he wasn't there.
oh.for no reason.he was happily waiting at Dover.

and so we drove down to Dover.
Sis and Thomas was damn curious about him.
I think thats part of the reason why they offered to drove me there.

=)

Thomas couldnt't find the way to Holland Village.
and so we hopped down to catch a cab.

The weirdest part is the taxi driver refused to drive us there.
he said that it is just behind and we could just walk there.
okay.he is really nice.at least he don't intend to earn unesscessary money from our pocket.
Well.maybe he got a probia of going to Holland Village. hehehehe.

We walked the direction that the taxi driver pointed.
but Holland Village doesn't look anywhere near there.
and so, we decided to ask someone.

me: excuse me. how do we get to Holland Village?
the girl:erm.why not I bring you guys there?
me:okay.
the girl: I'm from Vietnam (something like this, i guess)
Keat: oh. I'm from Thai.
the girl was like" woah?"
me: oh. and I'm from Myanmmar.

and so the lies go on.
it's addictive.
we cannot stop lying.

For the past 1hr, I became a 16yrs old Myanmmar girl with the name Tida who is studying sec3 at Holy Innocents High.
Keat is a 18yrs old Thai boy with the name Nathanal who just finished his Alevel at Pioneer JC and he bluntly thinks that he makes Thailand cool.
Oh. and we know each other for 2yrs during a hockey match.

A pack of harmless lies we told.

The three of us went to eat ice-cream together.
the ice-cream is heavenly.
and the girl (oh, her name is Katie) is really interesting I guess.
We exchanged email add and number.

and i'm like...
(talking to her on msn now at work.oh.im blogging at work too.haha)
(it really not easy to lie.though i lie throughout my whole 19yrs.i reckon it is just reallydifficult to lie to someone as nice as Katie.)

But. well. we are left with no choice now right?

Last night was au'somely nice.
I guess you really got a way to make me feel happy.

=D

carnival.

2008-03-08T23:57:00.005+08:00

Oh.I saw cute dolls today at Clarke Quay.
They are so adoring.
It reminds me so much of the Cabbage dolls that I loved when I was young.
Wells.I always loved fat fat chubby chubby dolls.
Barbie Dolls aren't my kinds of stuff. seeing all the boobs and whatever are just so gross.
These dolls are (sadly) not for sale.they are just for exhibition purpose.
they are simply too irresistible.
seeing all these dolls make me so delirious.

=)

Girlfriends and I stayed damn long admiring all those adorable dolls.
Till Jo said that at this rate we're not going to reach the carnival.
haha. and so we cabbed there.

The Cleo Bachelors carnival at Zouk.

The bachelors are.......erm.......not so pretty.more of macho.
Typical Singaporean guys.Boring.

Balloons are..........pretty airy things.

caramel-flavoured popcorn. (oh.i almost typed porncorn instead.haha.)

I am such a loser.(okay.I've always been a loser.) The last time I went to a haunted house (i think it is last yr,at Escape)

I went in by the entrance and I went out by the entrance too. I barely walked one quater of it and my flip-flop gt lost inside too.

Well. I'm still happily talking about what the lady at the palmreading said about my future to girlfriends. When it is my turn, I went up the stair with girlfriends. I am still not freaking scared at all. It only when I step into the room, hearing shrieking high-pitched girls screaming in total darkness that I freaked out.

History repeated it self again.

I wailed that I want to get out by the entrance. But the bachelor stopped me from getting out.

I think we will all look damn dumb running out of the entrance like mad woman when the haunted house is not exactly that frigthening at all.

Seriously, it is not that scary, but it still freaked the daylight out of me.

The worst thing is the fact that I know I'll be reallyreally scared yet curiousity get over me each time.

Still, the carnival is really fun. This year Cleo bachelors event are so much better than last year.

haha.and I got the tickets for next week final party too.

yay!

Greentea ice-cream

2008-03-06T14:17:00.003+08:00

Its funny how we both ended up at two different entrance of Botanical garden.
Its funny how we have decided to walk and find each other with the help of every signage we past by.
Its funnier how he called out for my name so that I could find him.
and it's the funniest how I could actually hear him from a distance away.

Boshy was of total no help.
I dragged him along most of the time.

oh.the melted green tea ice-cream is really yummy and addictive.I like.

I'm not so sure whether did I confused you last night.
but I hope not,
cause I'm no longer confused.
haha.

oh.and I couldn't believe that I spell "prelude" as "predule" all the while.
So many people read the story yet no one realized that I spelt that wrongly except for Keat I guess.
Maybe I should just ask him to be my editor afterall.

=)

bubblegumgum.

2008-03-04T13:41:00.002+08:00

I just woke up not so long ago.
oh.actually I'm already awake at about twelve.
but my body refused to get up.
The weather is freezing. The perfect weather for a sleep-in.

Oh.and I'm so bored at work yesterday. (I was working at transit1 u see.)
and so I've set my heart to write a short story.
haha.
Pam was my inspiration. We talked about vampire and we both decided to write a story about it.
Pam want a sublime story. more of like fatherly love?
Mine would be a funny romance story.
but Pam gave up after writing the first paragraph.
cause she is suppose to write from a human point of view followed by a vampire.
however, her human point of view is so much like a vampire that the whole story seems to be topsy-turvy.
and so, she decided to write a poem instead.

oh.and the poem is nice!
very vampire-ish.
i like.

haha.i only finished the prelude last night. Its not even chapter one yet.
I'll continue writing tonight i guess.with all the lights off.
writing in the daytime isn't inspirational with all the distraction everywhere.

Keagan want me to credit him as an editor.hahahahahahahaha.
so i shall credit him as a useless editor. okay?

Sensei called Pam yesterday morning.
we all passed our Jap Beginner one.
Well.that's because we copied Pam ans.
Sensei told Pam that she knew that we copied.
but
she couldn't understand why I get higher marks than Pam.
Its like impossible yah.

I'll be going for my Beginner two lesson later on.
Cant wait.
Unlike beginner one, I'll make sure I did all my hwk this time round.

=D

u know,
u make me look forward to bedtime everynight.
thanks.

=)

Costanzo's scar - Predule

2008-03-03T23:13:00.003+08:00

Costanzo's scar Author:Maltida

Predule - Born

I looked out of the window pane, the night wind ruffles my baby hair like how my dad does it when I was young. I smiled at the thought of it and stroked my hair gently and rocked back and forth. As my hand moved to the tip of my hair, I can feel the slight prickled feeling of the scar embedded deep into the left side of my neck. The scar I have got a few years back during my 21st birthday. This tiny and ugly mark changed the destiny of my life. Forever and never could I have the chance to redeem the life that I once had.

My name is Anatola. My mom bought me into this world on the 3rd of March 1987 when the chapel clock next to the hospital strike twelve. I believe that I am the first baby to be born on this day. Funnily enough, that is the only thing that I came in first from that day. My mom said that I am an odd baby. I didn’t wail when I came into this horrible, disgusting world. All babies cried their heart when they realize that they have to grow up in such a world. I guess that I just can't be bothered to cry, what's the point of wailing when you seriously have got no choice at all. A baby can't possibly take a knife and stab into his whole fragile heart, can they?

I was born for the second time on 3rd of March 2008 at 3am in the wee morning. It was my 21st birthday. This time, I have no idea who bought me into this old identical boring world again. The countdown party bash held by girlfriends is a total hit. We have the most amusing boogie night at SWAY down the Great Queen Street of London. The quietness surrounding me woke me up from my drunkard state. I found myself sprawling alone at the back alley of some street. My eyeliner smeared like the giant panda found in ZSL London Zoo. My cheeks felt warm yet wet at the same time. I felt a burning excoriating pain at the left side of my neck. I am mystified. Slowly, I lifted my fingers to touch the mark. I circulate my fingers around it for a few second, trying hard to figure out the weird shape that make out of it.
It hit me too hard as a realization that I passed out. The truth is just too ludicrous.

On this very night, I have turned into a beautiful blood sucking creature of the night.

I am a vampire.

thegame.

2008-03-01T21:07:00.005+08:00

Ale took a ring out of her pocket.
There is a red thread tied tightly to it.
It looked really familiar.

oh.haha. It is something we used to play during our sec school days.

=)

The first step is to rub the side of the red thread against the side of the palm.

Hover it over the palm.
It will not move at the start.
slowly,
It will being to either swing or swirl in circle.

Well.
If it swing, it means you're gonna have a boy.
If it swirl, it means a girl.

haha. dont laugh.
as stupid as this game might seem to be.
its pretty accurate since we tested it on Ale's mummy and Grandpa.

and no matter who or how many times gfs performed on me.
it is the same result!
haha.
i.can.have.5kids.3girls.2boys.gee.

but that doesn't mean i'll have.
it still goes down to whether you want or not.

Jo and Ale. =)

It feels good to be back at work.
though it is a freaking 5.45am, I'm not late for work.
Thanks for the wake-up call.
Elmo too.

=D

okay.the uniform is horrendous.
even cladding with a jacket doesn't make it much better.
Well.thats the down point of the job i guess. (theonlydownpoint)
you'll have to bear looking like a dim tum aunty for 9hrs a day.

=D

Was looking at Cher's blog at work (shefinallyupdated)
and I saw this...

haha.
i laughed a tad too loudly at work.
I think those tourists think that I'm out of my mind.

280208.2305.

2008-02-29T00:46:00.002+08:00

After you told me everything,
I wondered how long have you felt that way.but i don't think it goes all the way to 2yrs back when we first came to know each other?

I admit.I'm not at all shocked.
I bet you noticed that too.
I'm pretty much composed.
not at all shaken.
I couldn't explain the serenity that I felt.
maybe I already have an answer at that moment.

The little things that you have done for me during the past few months
isn't that little at all.
I noticed it all,
though it might not seem to be that obvious or significant.

We talked a lot about "my ideal pretty Jap boyfriend"
and I realised
that you've changed in a way too.

I like it when you said
"if I sit the wrong bus, give me a call and I'll drive you to your next destination."
it really makes me smiles.

I felt comfortable when I'm with you.
but
being comfortable with someone isn't enough.
like what gf always say:
Being comfortable with someone doesn't spell l-o-v-e.

I've a very long talk with gf after I gt home.
My gf has been with me for 9yrs.
She knows me inside out, just like a lil worm living in my tummy.

I have become more clear-headed.
I know what I really want now.

Well.
Thanks for the roses.I really like it.its a perfect shade of red. =)
Thanks for the potatoes salad.I ate it all up without sharing with Boshy.
Thanks for the card. The message means really a lot to me.
and
everything else that you've done.

I really don't wish to lose you as a friend.
I like the way things are before all these.
I like taking.joking.craping.poking . you.
I really do cherish this special friendship.

so,forgive me,
for all the hurts that I've put you through.
but remember please,
that I'll be there for you too.

IthinkImighthavefallenforsomeone.as much as I don't wish to admit to myself.
it hit me.suddenly.when I thought of all these.
I guess that the main reason why I can't be with you.

I'm really sorry.
text me after you read this okay.
let me know that you are fine.

Botanical Garden

2008-02-27T13:32:00.004+08:00

The meet up with keat
at Botanical Garden
with Boshy
in the late night
wasn't
awkward
at all.

It hit me as a big (nice) realization.
maybe I'm just a tad paranoid about everything in the first place.
when I think back now, I couldn't find the focal point to all the paranoid-ism.
(which is good in a way since I wouldn't want to remember much of those nervousness.)

=D

Botanical Garden has got pretty trees.
and they look really beautiful at night.
Its gave a magical feeling.
that I wouldn't dare to snap a picture
even though I really do want to.

Well.maybe the next time.when I brought my cam along.
I'll snap a picture (If the feeling it gave me is unlike last night.)

oh.and Boshy is so cute. I wore keat's cap home unconsciously. and (threw) it on the floor with my bag. Boshy sniffed the cap and rested his cute head there.
I thought of leaving the cap with Boshy for the rest of the night.
But.yes.I know I'll be in big trouble if Boshy gets hungry and
chew it up I guess.

Even if boshy show his cutest face, I doubt he can get away with it.
haha.

Keat.thanks for everything.
oh.and help me "wikipedia" the whole story of the mineral stone(erm.or is it limestone?) okay?
it feels funny to have it yet not knowing a single thing about it.

=)

Boshy has been going out pretty often lately. (the world most fortunate dog.haha)
Brought him to Punggol Jetty last Sunday.
We told Boshy that we'll bring him to as many places in the world as we could. (oh.maybe.it just Singapore la)

I didn't know that it is a WWII site.cool.

Jappie exam on Mon is do-able since I sat in between Pam and a Jappie pro girl.
Almost the whole row copied their answer.
so we are all gonna pass it!

=)

Jaren great idea of gathering after the last Jap class.
Everywhere was pretty much packed.
and so
we just hang around at some back alley.

Well.I'm going to start work this Sat with a freaking 5.45am shift.
and
I'm going to remove my braces in 1mth time (okay.slightly more than that)
the thought of both makes me feel delirious.

oh.Jo.I'm gg to see you tmr.
cant wait!

=D

compulsive habits.

2008-02-24T14:23:00.004+08:00

220208. when the night turned dark,and the clock strike twelve.The house at Lorang Batawi turned to dead silence. The lively sounds of people messing up the tiles with their heart content, tete-a-tete of the human world, drinking the water that give them life, all stopped when the last bell rang.

oh.cause they are all craving for ice-cream!
so they all stopped playing mahjong!

SHIT.

oh.anyway.we are all craving for ice-cream while playing mahjong.
the craving is so strong.
so we hurried out to catch the last bus down to the ice-cream cafe opposite Chomp Chomp.

Ice-cube!
it opens till 2am!

We all ordered alcoholic ice-cream.
heavenly.
Its really fun. you get to choose your choice of ice-cream and your preferred shots.

thats cookie and cream with Baileys.

=D

all you have to do is just pour the baileys over the ice-cream...

and eat like you really mean it...

divine.like totally.

okay.I know I look horrendous. but it is midnight. no one is looking anyway.

cause they will all be looking at my pretty gfs instead!
haha!

oh.and I feel so bloody stupid now.
Keat was at a party last night and said that he doesn't knows how to play mahjong...
and so....
I texted him this....

The 3 easy steps for beginners in mahjong. First, mess up the tiles. You can imagine that you are swimming and the tiles are little fishes. 2^nd, stack those tiles up like lego. 19 or 18 tiles for 2 rows. Make sure it looks smth like the great wall of china. Oh lastly, just say PONG and CHI and throw tiles at people!

When I read it from his blog just a moment ago.
I felt so embarrassed of myself.
pffft.

okay.I'm gg for picnic dinner later on.
cant wait for potatoes salad!

=D

grey.

2008-02-22T00:34:00.005+08:00

210208

I'm really bored this afternoon.
and so...
I have home-made sushi for lunch.

=D

making sushi is easy...all you need is some rice.Japanese vinegar.seaweed.crabmeat( i like crabmeat mayo.its really yummy!)
and the sushi box to cramp the rice altogether.

oh.you need good rolling skills too. If not it will end up as gross as mine.

I cleared the mess in my room.

I wanted to pamper myself with manicure.painting it with nice shade of white.but
I'm too lazy to trim and file my nails.

I ended up infront of my piano for almost the whole afternoon.
I played and you-tubed for comparison.
and I realised that I sucked completely.

I like watching little children sitting infront of the piano and playing their heart out.
the sight of it is oh-so-inresistable.
and they are so amused that their parent are filming them.
I wish I could hug and tickle them.

=)

Well. we have steamboat for dinner again.
as in a very mini steamboat since there are only three of us.
so mummy say no teppan-yaki for today.

=(

Went over to Xuan' house after dinner.
That cute girl has got big plans on Sunday.
I admired her for her guts.
It is something I would never dare to do.
The power of love doesn't drive me to do great things, it just simply drives me mad.

I got my Yakuza Moon book. (like finally! haha)
cant wait to read it.

and Xuan. thanks for the beanies!
love ya!

=)

I couldn't comprehend your thoughts
not at all
but
I 've got a good feeling about it all.

horrible realization.

2008-02-19T23:08:00.004+08:00

Today is the last day of school.
and it is the day that I went to school alone.
Indeed, alone. though I met fishy along the way.
Everyone has different interview timing.and thats explain why.

Desmond is funny.
He arranged three tables in between us.
me: why are we sitting this way?
Cute Desmond: oh.cause I'm afraid that u'll see your mark. (and he points to the score)
me: (tip-toe a bit). but i already saw it. I got a 65?!
Cute Desmond: whoops! erm...u see wrongly la.
me: I dont think so. HAHA.

how funny can he be? (verydarnsofunny)
Maggie Seow came in and ask him to go outside since she gots a few ques to ask him.
Desmond looks at me, and carried the whole box of thesis and his document.
He claims that I will peek through everything if he is not around.

Met Debbie after lesson to post our applications.
and I almost dropped it into the FRANKED MAIL box.

I hate it when I think way too much.
too much that my head is so heavy.
its like a huge stone contained inside your head
and you just couldnt get it out.
making it worse is the hustle and bustle around you that makes your head spins like how the earth is spinning now.
its not really that bad.I'm exaggerating. but its pretty bad.

and so I head off to a place where I know I will step out feeling never like before.

Yes.I went to Nativity Church.
Its a weekday and there isn't any services going on.
Its nice.I like to be alone.

I prayed.and I broke down.
when I thought of all the small little different aspects in my life.
the realization of horrible truth.
the uncertainty in the certainty .
the impossibilities as well as possibilities.

I seek for help.
I know I will get the signs.
I know I will receive the answer.

and so,
I left the church
a tad more light-headed
a little more clear-headed
with a small bounce in every step I took.

loaded

2008-02-19T01:43:00.007+08:00

Tmr will spell the last day of school for me.
after my 15mins interview with cute Desmond Lim. =D

Uni applications are making me perspiring for no reason.
I felt nervous even typing in my own name.
and much worse when I clicked the submit button.
when there's nothing to be nerve-wrecking about.

Steamboat at Tami's house was G-R-E-A-T even though only five out of 8 of us turned up.
Well, there's Pam, Brenda, Jaren, Tami (ofcourse) and myself.

Pam and I went to catch another of Jack Neo's production.
The Ah Long show.
Pam purchased the tickets first since I'm erm terribly late. She said that she feels funny buying the tickets and kept laughing. (HAHA!)

oh.I want to watch The Water Horse. It looks cute. (but boshy is still cuter.)

and Tami's grand piano is awesome. (I thought of stealing it)
her computer speakers are good too. (Pam thought of stealing that)

Its pretty obvious that this is Pam's hand.

oh.and this is dear Tami!

Pam got pretty high when Tami and I played instrumental classical music. (she's that funny)
haha.
Well. cause the music that we played are like..................
"very-suitable-to-play-when-there's-a-thunderstorm"
that explains why Pam is so deliriously excited.

Steamboat. (makes me happy.haha.)

Merlot. (makes me equally happy too)

Jaren makes Mango Pudding and its heart-shaped.(he loves all of us la!)
haha.
I've to admit that it is reallyreally yummy! (for once)

Our Dear Brenda.
Loves the way she strum the guitar even though almost all the songs are mandarin-pop.

Made by Xuan with Love:

MotherGarden is absolute love.... 150208

We intended to go Yum Cha.
but that cunning restaurant doesn't offer buffet during New Year period.
what a wet blanket.
so we heard off to Tian Xin Lou instead.

oh.I think this picture of Jarett is classic.haha.
my dearest.

Steamboat at Cher's House... 110208.

Sundae is cute.Boshy is cuter. =D

Okay.I just woke up.
I fell asleep infront of my com.
argh.

BYE!

it aint' enough.

2008-02-16T23:18:00.003+08:00

Somtimes,
Being comfortable with each other doesn't spell l-o-v-e.
Sometimes,
it just ain't enough.

MotherGarden.

2008-02-16T00:48:00.003+08:00

DimTum Buffet with Xuan, Misty, Xinhui, Olivia and Jarett is fantabulous. =D

P/s. I love you is really a good show.

I remembered reading the novel a few years back
wetting the book with tears,
when
Holly smiled though she is feeling a hell lots of pain when Jerry passed on.
and when she has to hug herself to sleep.alone.in the apartment.full of past memories.
she opened the letter that Jerry left her.one for each day.its short yet sincere.
she is so touched.it felt that Jerry is back once again.yet reality said no.
she is guided out of her misery by Jerry's unexplainable presence.Daniel's sarcastic sense of humor.Jerry's good friend whom she incidentally went to bed with.

The last drop of tears is the tear of joy whereby Holly has moved on with her life.

haha.xuan.remember what I said on the train?
I said that...
I'm so gonna blog about other things other that you.
but
I couldnt help it.
hahahaha.

and so Xuan,
I've decided.
to write a (verynice) handwritten long letter instead of typing it here.
so check your letterbox soon!

and
I seriously think that
with such girlfriend like you around
who need a boyfriend?

The photo albums that you designed is like "wow!"
(though it is filled with ugly photos of me)
I really love it girl.
Thanks my dear xuan. =)

Sometimes I really wish that I'm a guy, u know.

It only takes a spark.

2008-02-15T00:45:00.001+08:00

I woke up this morning. (erm.its afternoon, actually)
and feel the sudden desire to learn ventriloquism.

It must be due to the dream that I have last night I guess.
though I couldn't remember much.
I think I met a pretty ventriloquist;
he is singing a duet with his puppet (his puppet is a female though)
and his manipulating skills is superb.

=D

oh.anyway.(in case u're pretty much confused)
Ventriloquism is an act of stagecraft in which a person (a ventriloquist) manipulates his or her voice so that it appears that the voice is coming from elsewhere.

The illusion of ventriloquism is just that, an illusion. A ventriloquist is skilled at speaking without moving his or her lips. The audience therefore actually detects the sound of the voice from the ventriloquist’s mouth, but sees only the mouth of the puppet moving.

but seriously, I doubt Singapore offer such interesting things anyway.
I dont seem to heard of any local ventriloquist.

Valentine day was well-spent at Alesia's abode.
We ate Indian cuisine.(her dad cater it from some Indian catering, i guess)
its yummy though the food looks funny especially the cauliflower.
It is coated with red colouring for some reason.
and its not at all spicy though it look fiery.

Alesia's French relatives was there too.
those boys are cute.
I like the way they bid goodbyes with a warm hug and a peck on the cheek.
the feeling is so loved.
and its amusing seeing them gibbering in French
and looking so confused when we blabber in English.

Its like communication breakdown.
haha.

maybe sign language should be made compulsory all over the world.
so that
no matter what nationality you are
which races u belong to
whether are u incapable of hearing or speaking
Wells,
everybody can just convey everything using signs!
Its like an universal thingy.

oh. I better go plan my working schedule for March. (I signed a 3mths contract with STB for part-time job.the pay is good.8bucks per hr. hehe)
and pam and I are going to send in similar schedule so that we will be roster to work together.
since we'll be continuing our Jap after we pass our beginner one.

Sensei said that I'll have to benkyoshimasu (study) harder.
I think she realised that I've not been handing in my hwk for erm.weeks?

and I'm freaking hungry now.
but since I'll be having dim tum buffet with M.G peeps later
it make sense to save an empty stomach for the buffet right?

I'm so gonna makes my 20bucks worth it. (What a cheapo!)

oh.and Boshy is whinning now. (argh)

ever.

2008-02-14T01:09:00.004+08:00

It has been a long time since Elmo sang.
and so today,
he tried to wake me up with his "not-so-nice" singings.
I pressed away.
and drifted away.
I'm so late for school.

oh.finally.the suffering of struggling with my thesis every night is over.
yes.over.hehe.
now, its just a 15mins interview with my cute tutor before I can graduate out of TP for good.
(Wells.I know that I'll miss TP life badly.)

Jap class and Supper with that two cranky humans caused my tummy to hurt from all the oh-too-much laughters.
and Sensei said that we're gonna sit for exam on the 25th. (SHIT!)

Pam lips are so kissable. =D

We got a free bread from a bakery that we past by.
cause dear Jaren offered to help some ladies push the "cakes refrigerator".
(okay.actually.I told the aunty to give me one free bread since they have so many left anyway)
and it ended up as a pretty smiley bread.

=D

Steamboat with Bims on Mon are fantabulous.
oh.joyjoy.upload pictures soon alright.your blog is still stagnant with your chinesenewyear day number two photos.
haha.

Its funny how dearest joyjoy and alyssa gets so excited to watch porn after the steamboat.
Its funny how cecilia closes her eyes to avoid getting her mind polluted.
Its funny how cecilia become alive when she heard that the two girls are switching to GAY porn. (She loves watching gay porn!)

Oh.I played mahjong with Jean, Cher and Fishy.
Mahjong is far more exciting than watching Porn.
I told girlfriends that I wanna save my first porn for my special someone.
They exclaimed: aren't we special?!
oh wells. of course you girls are special...
but I wanna watch it with that special someone;
the special someone who is special in his that very special way.(that very special one la!okay!)

haha.
they find it damn ridiculous.
nevermind.haha.

Mummy said that my pony tail is like crap.
I think so too.
argh.

Today is Valentine day.
I dont like Valentine day.

because
when you look around you
it'll hit you (right in your head)
that
being single
is not the best thing in the world.
suddenly
I just dont feel so bloody proud of it.

BYEBYE!

I know you're just a passing cloud.
but
I really dont wish you to be.
really.really.really.

The stress of doing thesis.

2008-02-10T23:34:00.001+08:00

I'm pretty stressed up doing my thesis.
so is Pam.
I'm doing a topic regarding Tourism 2015. (boring)
Pam is doing Dark Tourism prospect in Singapore. (like duh!)

We started talking bout:
Spore being the most haunted place in Asia (that's a fact)
oh.and Pam thinks that is because Singaporeans are all so stressed so when we die, we all dont die peacefully.
I told her to write that in her thesis. and give a very good example which is doing this bloody thesis.

she typed out this:

Singapore is a stressful place, thus it has caused this island to become the most haunted place in asia because people cannot die peacefully. By giving us such thesis, it will increase the number of unpeaceful spirits flying around this tiny island.

In near future, especially when the population of singapore is already an aging one, singapore will become "The Island of the Unpeaceful Deads"

haha. I wouldn't dare to imagine what Maggie Seow(Pam's tutor) will say if dear Pam really type that in her thesis.

Well.I gt a bad feeling that an ambulance will be along it way though.haha.

Steamboat(again)

2008-02-10T15:21:00.000+08:00

Opened my house for steamboat once again. =D
Sis invited her cheerleading team over.
haha.
they are all pretty neat people.
and those guys are really erm...macho?! (sis said that it is due to all the intensive training that build up their muscles.)
haha.

the whole house was really crowded.noisy.cramped.packed like many sardines in a small in-expandable can.
but I like.
the feeling of climbing over chairs and table to steal some food from the table into my room is incredibly fun.

=)

Girlfriends(Jo,ale,jane) came over for some mahjong.
Its has been erm (If i'm not wrong) four months since I last touched that (oh-so-addictive) tiles.

my thesis is half-done.
I hope it'll be done by tonight.

Mon will be a hectic day.
STB meeting.
oh.and steamboat with my Bims at Cher's house. (it'll be the 3rd time I'm eating steamboat this new year.haha.)

and I can't wait to see MG peeps this Fri. =D
(i'm so gonna ruffle xuan's short hair.hehe.)

okay. i'm off to finish up my thesis.

I dreamt way too much.
that it all crashed.

New Year.

2008-02-09T00:55:00.000+08:00

Boshy tried to woke me up in the morning with his pathetic whinning and macho barking.
haha.but alas, he failed.
Its only when sis reminded me that aunties and uncles are coming our house
that I jumped out of my bed.
no way am I going to let them see me in my horrendous-just-wake-up state.

and so..........

I freshen myself and await for all the little children.aunties.uncle.
Oh.and my angpow too.
=D

This is Elijah with his cute funny expression. he is Pri three this year.
oh.and (unfortunately), he's same height as me. (and sis too) =(

This Isabelle (Elijah's elder sister). She's pri five this year.
and she's (luckily) shorter than me. (Yay!)

and this is Jayven. He's erm Pri six this year(If I'm not wrong)
haha.and he's (slightly) taller than me. (whpew!)

and they are all (happily) stuck in my room.playing some cute online games.you-tubing.

The adults outside talked about erm.... (everything under the sky) I reckon.
and they all loves Boshy. (Well.I havent met anyone who dislike fluffy fluff fluff though)

Boshy is so burnt out at the end of the day.
He slept through the evening. and almost missed dinner.

Have you ever tried this?

haha.its reallyreallyreallyreally G-O-O-D!

My thesis is...................

so dead...........................

me too............................

argh................................

New Year Eve.

2008-02-07T02:55:00.000+08:00

The time now is 5mins before 3am.
I'm listening to Dark Chest of Wonders by Nightwish. great song!
haha.
yes.I'm gg to stay up till 6am.( I want mummy to live longer.)
=)
anyway. I've gt thesis to finish up.
so it isn't that tough.i reckon.

haha.I didnt buy any new clothings or whatsoever for this year New Year.
erm.I dont usually buy for the past few years too.
it just isnt a habit.
I just wear whatever I want. wear what I always wear on one fine typical day.
I dont see the point of dolling up when half the times I'm just stuck at one house.

haha. and wearing too elaborate just erm hinder my movements.
like playing see-saw and slides.
or monkey-bar. u see........

Thomas drove us down to Aunt Mary house at Holland Drive.

me.sis.thomas.boshy and rachel went to play at the playground opposite.

there's a birthday party going on. so we joined in too.haha.

Hanging out at Holland always gives a pretty exotic feeling.
cause...
you'll be the few rare chinese around there.
haha.

This pretty lil girl patted Boshy and smiled the sweetest smile that makes me feel like hugging her.

Little boy in orange: Can I pat your little dog?
me: no prob! u like doggie?
Little boy in orange: yes!
me: how about if I give you my dog?
Little boy in orange: (nodded his head profusely) really?! I want!
me:erm.I'm just kidding.sorry. (slightly embarrassed.sis groaned.)
can I snap a pic of you? I think you are really cute.
Little boy in orange: (shrieked) nonononono. (and hide his pretty face)
me: (snap) haha. I took it already. byebye!
Little boy in orange: (stared in disbelief)

Little children are really a bundle of joys.

Rachel. the world most ridiculous little girl.who happens to be my niece too.

Ryan. the world most adorable little boy. who happen to be the world most ridiculous girl's little brother. and who is my nephew too.

Rachel forced us to play donkey with her.
for some reason. she kept winning.
and I'm always losing.
she laughed damn loudly at me.
argh.

Sis and the little monster.

haha.
Well. I like "lao-ing" the yu sheng.
but I only ate the crispy thingy.
Veggies aren't the thing that I can chew without puking all over.

SteamBoat. (gee!)

That monstrous lil girl dragged me and sis down to the basement to play silly games with her after dinner.
Well. her game is so bloody violent!

She climbed on top of the couch.
and intend to jump over our head.
haha.Sis is damn freaked out.

the little girl is rather hentai for her age too.
She damn curious what colour undergarment we're wearing.
and she told sis that she wanna see her birdie.
hahahahahaha. we 're damn shocked.
anyway. when did dear sis own a birdie?!
that girl is ridiculous to the peak.
we played london bridge(the only proper game),
the rest are invented by her.
which are violent,unglam, not-advisable-to-be-played-by-little-kids.

but still.
no matter what.
I still love that ridiculous.hentai.monstrous.little.niece of mine. =D

ihopetimefiles.fast.really fast.like the lighting that strike and flash across the dark sky.
so that........
=)

WICKED - Musical

2008-02-06T11:10:00.000+08:00

I'm suppose to be racking my brain, killing all the brain cells, drink vitagen and do a draft of my project last night.

but alas,

I'm so busy trying to search for the whole complete series of WICKED - Musical.

I you-tubed for hours after hours and only manage to watch bits and pieces.

but still,

it is really au'some!

haha. I cant wait to buy the storybook(I saw it at Times @ Changi Airport.)

erm. I think I'll buy it when i start working there after the submittion of my thesis. =D

Oh.today is New year Eve!

I better start doing my thesis. there isnt much time left since the deadline is six days later. (ARGH! i'm so dead.)

we'll be having dinner at Holland drive.Aunt Mary's house later on.

I can't wait. =D

the food are always fantabulous at aunt Mary house! (heavenly goody-ness!)

okay.now i better go bathe lil fluffy fluff fluff till he's not fluffy anymore.

oh.and people say that the later u sleep on New Year Eve, the longer your parent will live.

so...

being such a fillial girl...

of course I'm not gonna sleep!

hehe.

Fabric Paints.

2008-02-04T12:56:00.001+08:00

I couldnt sleep last night.
not at all.
Falling asleep nowadays seem to be the world hardest task.
but never mind.
I still fall asleep eventually.
Its just a matter of time before my mind succumb to my lifeless body.

Well.I did some spring cleaning just now. (erm.yes.it's only some.chores are boring, admit it.)
I re-arranged my book shelves to make way for my pretty red table.
oh.and I hung my full-length mirror too.
and I moved my precious letters from the almost-going-to-explode old box to the one new one I brought ytd.

I randomly choose some to read.
and almost die of over-dose of laughter.
how childish can one get?

We used Icons to represent people, so that in case our letter gets stolen, no one will know who we are gossiping.
We used envelope and decorate it with mushy silly messages.
oh.and there's a 20pages letter from someone.I give up after the fifth pages.it just so unreadable.
Seriously.I wonder how long did that person takes to write that letter.
(doesn't your hand hurts at all?)

but those letters bring back lots of secondary school memories.
It so weird when I read it.
The way girlfriends talk about my relationship with my bf at that time...

is like...
we're meant for each other.
and we'll be together forever.

the way they kept mentioning about how much my ex loves me.
and how compatible we could be.

it just felt so weird when I read it now.
How naive can one be last time?

I stopped reading after a while.

and re-packed my art and crafts box.
haha.yes.its getting too small too.
so I moved everything to the same D.I.Y box that I bought ytd. (I'm gg to label it later on)

and there is a sudden desire to paint.

and so...

I took Boshy's plain white floor mat...

re-arranged my fabric paints...

and started painting...

and TADA!

Boshy:"Hey! look! this is my pretty home!!!

haha. I'm gg to place this in front of his playhouse tmr. (Fabric paint takes at least a day to dry.)
Its pretty tough to draw especially when half the time it is too watery or lumpy.
I need to buy new colour soon. (YAY!)

Mummy is getting ready to go Chinatown again.
Well.I 'll be staying at home for the whole day.
Tmr is consultation day.
I need to start doing my report.
if not.I'll have nth to show my tutor tmr.

oh.
and I want to play this again....

it will be a test.
on how stiff my fingers are.
The contrast in dynamics as well as tempo in this piece requires flexibility and "flying fingers" to play it well.
This is one of my exam pieces for my 2005 Grade8 exam.
It is the one that I screwed up.
Yet, it is the one that I like most.
J.S Bach music pieces are always au'some.

Well. I dont expect much from myself. it has been some time since I last played this.

You leave me when I need you most
now you ask for my return
I'm not going to turn back
ever.

IKEA =D

2008-02-03T23:35:00.000+08:00

2.4km run makes me so burnt. there are high possibilities that I'm as dark as during hockey days now. its depressing with the slightest thought of it. =(

haha.Ale looks so adorable after the run.her face is as yummy as tomato!

Hello.I'm number ninety and my face is burnt in the ugliest way. bleh.

Went IKEA today. =D
Ikea always makes me excited.
its like a dreamy place.

when you walk from showroom to showroom,
your mind will somehow drift away.
if you are at Ikea Children,
you will think of the past,
imagine yourself sleeping on those cute small bed that has a leaf overhead,
or riding on the toy horse that goes back and forth.

if you are at the bedroom section,
its like WOW.
you'll feel like getting married immediately.
the kitchen showroom makes it even more elaborate.
its like an uncontrollable desire.

haha.
dont you think so?
erm. or is it only me again?!

Sis and Thomas.They look more like brother and sister rather than couple.hahaha.

Mummy gt a shock when I told her that I'm wearing guy espirt tee.
she said smth like: why you wear guys clothing?! no wonder nobody want you.
me: roll eyes.haha.

Sis bought a pretty white wardrobe and two bookshelves.
I bought some random stuff.
a small red table.
hippo curtain.
D.I.Y boxes.
oh.and a FULL LENGTH MIRROR. =D

hehe. Finally I own a full length mirror.
No more mismatch clothings and fashion disaster! (Yay!)

We've much troubles trying to squeeze everything into the car.
haha.we ended up sitting in the weirdest position.

my legs still hurts terribly.
I couldnt walk properly.
its more like dragging than walking.
but I am scared to go to the doc.
I hope panadol will helps.

NAPFA.

2008-02-03T00:57:00.000+08:00

NAPFA today is a great disappointment.
I didnt manage to clinch my Gold.Its just a silver.

I've always been scared of standing board jump.I still fear it lots.
I almost failed the whole NAPFA because of it.

but all thanks to the "head" of the fitness innovative team (whom we all can see is in love with my gf,alesia.haha.)
he lets me jump manymanymany times.
at first I passed.
but im not satisfied.
I still want my Gold.
and so he teaches me and jumped with me.
I wanted my Gold so badly that I jumped from the min 174cm marking and tried to jump pass the starting line. Its really tough. I tried so many times.
finally.I jumped through.
Everyone is shocked.
From a 155cm it became a 175cm.
haha.
Yes.I'm so delirious. =)

At that point of time,
I'm so BLOODY confidence that I will clinch my Gold.
2.4km has always been a no problem thing.

but alas, I'm so wrong.
I couldnt run.
my muscles tear and its hurts a lot.
I told myself not to stop when I'm running.
but every step I took. the pain is too intense.
I started walking.skipping. hopping.

I gt the worst timing that I've ever seen in my life. a 16mins.
its pretty shocking.
from a 11plusplus in sec school to a 16mins.

I must have been rotting for these three years.my muscles is so lazy.I think it is dead.

I think im gg to re-take my NAPFA again.
I still want my Gold badly.
Im such a loser. I know.
but I just cant stand
getting a silver because of 2.4km.
if it is cause of standing board jump, I still can pacify myself.
but 2.4km,
no way.

hello girls. with you all around. NAPFA is such joy! =D

Pretty Alesia the hockey girl,whom "head-of-fitness-team" is falling head and heels with.hahahaha.

hello there. u look even more ugly when u make ugly faces,MaltidaGoh.

p/s:i want photos from you girls sides too.hehe. love you all! =D

Sweeney Todd

2008-02-01T23:45:00.000+08:00

Career Fair is such a hustle bustle.
It feels funny when people around you are so excited about it.
Some are checking out their future job.
Some are actually applying for job.
Some are already preparing for interview.
and there are some who felt rather redundant.
Oh.and I am one of them.

I have set my heart on NTU.
but yes, I'm really really scared.
what if...
I couldnt get in.
what if...
I have no where to go.
what if...

my pretty Alyssa. She's going for SIA interview! =D

Oh.and Sweeney Todd is really a good musical.
it worth your 8bucks.
the storyline might be too sadistic,pathetic and the scenes are bloody,gross.
but its really fantabulous.
Johnny Depp's singing is so melodic. and so are the other artists.

=D

Tml's Napfa.haha.
I hope I can jump pretty far.my leg is so bloody short.haha.

coldwar

2008-02-01T11:43:00.000+08:00

I hate the cold war we're having now.
I cant believe that it all started with such a trivial stuff.

Boshy barked incessantly last night.
Mummy slapped boshy right across his face.
I'm fumed with anger.
I scolded and yelled at the top of my voice.
grabbed Boshy and my everything.
and sleep in the couch in the piano room. (Im suppose to sleep in mummy room cause of the mini renovation in my house)

I couldnt sleep at all.
I scrolled down my phone contacts.
so many yet there is no one that I could call at 3am without being such a ridicule.

I felt so lousy now.

and I'm running late for school, SHIT.

Disenchanted.

2008-01-31T23:05:00.000+08:00

How many times do I have to take the wrong bus?

I cant believe that I took the wrong bus down to Alexandra Hosp.
Suppose to collect my dental rubberband at 1pm.
and I reached like about 2pm. sucks totally.
I should slap myself awake.
Im always in such a daze.argh.

Oh.but i received good news from the "person-in-charge-of-my-appointment" (Well, what am I suppose to call her?) Well. it is a good news cause...
Last month...
"person-in-charge-of-my-appointment" : your next appointment will be on 14th Feb okay?
me: erm. is that Valentine day?
"person-in-charge-of-my-appointment" : yes.erm.u gt a date? want me to change?
me:erm.nononono.valentine day will be perfect.

hahahaha.
today.before I leave the clinic.she said: see you on the 13th!
I am stunned.
I told her that it is suppose to be 14th.
she checked.
and yes. it's a no!
my appointment is on 13th.hehehehe.
so.I am not gonna have a date with my dear Dr Chong. =D

stupid.what's there to be so delirious about?

took bus14 down to STB headquater to meet Pam Jaren and Alverina.
I didnt take the wrong bus.
but I alighted at the wrong bus stop.
and ended up walking a whole deal lots.

STB's library is really cozy.
I love it.

Uniquely Singapore.haha.

The Havard-University-look-alike library.

hello project. you're making my dizzy.

oh.we took the wrong bus again.thanks to dear Alverina.haha.
and we ended up at Singapore Red Cross.
but we didnt donate any blood though.
haha.

we're suppose to head down to National Library.
Alas, we end up walking walking walking at Orchard Road.

and why is everything I am typing underlined?!
so weird.
nvm.

Reached home at around nine.
and yes.I went running again. (BEAMS)

300108 Wed Afternoon Sunny.

Met my bims for lec and lunching. =D

Passed Alyssa the cute lil heart-shaped make-up pouch that she eyed on at The Face Shop.
For some reason, I have a couple of it at home.
haha.she's damn deliriously happy.
It's always the small lil things that makes a girl happy I guess.

She's busy opening it during Lec and filling in all her cosmetics.haha.cute la u.

My lovely bims. =D

Ate Zura Soba at Mensa. it tasted like Cha Soba. NICE!

Stupid Joyce.still as bimbotic as ever.she ruined my soba.but I still ate it all up.haha.
(next time u ruin my food again, im not letting Boshy play with you.hahahaha)

oh.we ordered this blue lil ribbon online for Boshy.
haha.
adorable right?

did u forget all about me?
I gt a bad feeling.

themanythingsthathavenotbeensaid.

2008-01-29T13:06:00.000+08:00

Yesterday is the first day of school after 20weeks of internship. TP feels so alien.(TP has always felt alien to me. Tourism Academy@Sentosa is better. and Secondary school is the best =)

Suppose to meet BIMS for lunch in the morning.haha.
but I'm too exhausted from rushing my portfolio.
so I meet Pammie and Tami to do those last min stuff in the afternoon.
We gave ourselves 3hrs to finish up those printing binding photo-copying and yadayadayada.
Alas, we still dont have enough time.(I think we crap too much.bleh)

The mess on my Com table.

I almost got a heart attack while doing those last min stuff.I realised that my last min stuff is so bloody much.
The three of us make a big fool out of ourselves. we are like three mad women. we talked crapped joked SCOLDED whined complained like there is no tmr.

We are already 15mins late for class when our portfolio is finally completed.
The form on the left is my appraisal form. We are suppose to sign and agree to the appraisal marks given to us.
but alas, we didnt.
I wrote smth like this: I agree to the above appraisal mark to a certain extent because our supervisor are not working with us most of the times and yada yada yada.
its true.
We all felt that we deserve better score.
and STB is so strict.I can see perfect scores in others appraisal. =(
We run all the way to hand in "everything" and rushed to class. (we're so damn late)

Pam: what class am I in? me:not sure! either 67 or 69. should be 69 la.
and so...
Pam run toward classroom 69. me and tami ran to classroom num 67 and I opened the door..

me:oops! wrong class!
me:eh! pam! your class here la! (I shouted that without closing the door.I forgot can.I didnt even realised what I am doing until Tami pointed out later on that I didnt close the door and I actually SHOUTED.)
and Pam says everyone is laughing when she walked into her class.hahahahaha.

oh! that's Lynette enjoying her ice-cream.

This is the cutest thing pammie ever done. =D
She drew dotted lines across her wrist.and she wrote "cut here"
hehehe.
so damn ADORABLE. (we couldnt concentrate during jappie class.we are sooo tired)

Supper at Selegie ended up with pammie puking taohui all over.and its all Jaren's fault.
and oh! Jaren friend is learning Jap cause of a girl.hahahaha.(the power of love.)HAHA.

Well.I was listening to my mp3 before I sleep.
suddenly.my hp vibratevibrate and MCR started screaming.
haha.
talked on the phone with keat.
and things started to turn really freaky.
its seem like there's someone trying to end our calls intentionally.
we couldnt call each other back.

things get back to normal after he uses his house phone to ring me.

and after a while.

things get even freakier. the line is cut off.
he called me back.
and I heard squeaky voice at the end of the line. it seems like someone is talking to me but the voice become distorted.
it doesnt sounds like his voice at all.

we decided to sleep.its too scary can.

Sunday.270108.Sunny.

Boshy wake up early and he wants to go to Bishan park to play with his friends.
haha.

haha.boshy and his puppy-eyes-looks again.

Boshy is getting really excited!
and I am getting pretty depressed.

I look so bloody UGLY.
especially make-up-less.
my skin is bad.
my nose looks big too.
ARGH.

ah.nvm.so what if i look freaking ugly.
Boshy still loves me all the same. (BEAMS)

Bishan Park!

Boshy fav hangout place other than my messy room.

My pretty sis playing with Boshy.
She's not staying in hostel anymore since her cheerleading competition is over!
YAY! though I am still not used to having her at home.haha.
it feels so strange when she drag her blanket into my room last night and said that she dont want to sleep alone in her room. (I almost forgot about it.it had been like one year since she last does that?)
and it feels funny that I couldnt roll about on my big double single bed. normally all teddys will sleep on the inner bed and I will sleep on the outer bed to protect it from falling.
but still,it nice to have someone sleeping with you. =)

Boshy and his new found friend. =)

This dog is very erm horny.
he keeps pestering boshy.
i think he is in love with boshy.
haha.

Boshy is damn scared of that horny dog.
he hides behind Thomas.
and when the dog comes near,
he begs Thomas to carry him.
SO CUTE.

haha.the dog beside Boshy is a racist.
He's a cross between Pomeranian and Torgi.
The owner said that the biggest problem with this dog is that he barks when he sees black dog as well as Indians.
OMG la.
True enough. A black dog came by to play and this cross-bred doggie almost goes crazy.haha.
I'm thinking. lucky he's not a human.
If not racial harmony might not be possible in Singapore.

Went to US Doggie Bakery a few days ago.
I amost died laughing when I saw this:

hahahaha.
so funny.
even doggie has reunion dinner!

erm.after laughing for pretty long.I feel that its not exactly that funny at all.
I wondered whether does Boshy misses her daddy mummy brothers and sisters.
I wondered where is his family.
what if they miss him that much too.
argh.
we should have brought the whole family home. even though it will cost us a bomb.

bathing fluffy fluff fluff. =D

2008-01-25T20:02:00.000+08:00

July till now.
It have been a total of 6 and a half months.
Yet. never once did I shower Boshy.
It always mummy,sis or sis's bf who shower him.

and so, early in the afternoon at about twelve.
I drag that dirty fluffy ball to the bathroom.

haha.he's trying real hard to jump off the so-called bathtub.
that fluffy thing doesnt like to bathe!

His shampoo.its whiten and brighten his coat of fur!

First. Drench him with water!

Second. rub in the shampoo.
he's no longer fluffy.haha.

Wash off all the shampoo.
put him on top of the toilet bowl seat.
and throw a towel at him.
oh.and he will dry himself just like how we always dry ourselves with a towel. (haha.not funny.)

we shared the same hairdryer.
I always blow my hair with hot steam and set my hair with the cold air.
and I only take bout 10mins for it. =)
boshy?
he's so fussy.
he's scared of the hot steam.
so its cold air all the time.
he takes altogether 45mins to dry all his furs!

big brush to brush his fur.
big comb to comb his fur.
small comb to comb his fringe and the fur around his mouth and nose.
oh.and thats a nail filer.
and the last one is a nail cliper.

after all that...

we've here a brand new puppy!
=D

oh.look at this.

Nightwish is nominated in five different categories for the Finnish "Emma" award. The categories are:

"Band of the year"
"Best Metal Album" (Dark Passion Play)
"Best Album" (Dark Passion Play)
"Song of the year" (Amaranth)
"Best finnish artist"

haha.yayness! =)
This is what we call the deliriously happy mood.

but alas,it is not to last.
I'm so dead for portfolio.still gt thousand thousand thousand of words to go.

I better go do now.

Doubting one with heart.

2008-01-24T00:26:00.000+08:00

Laughed too much at work today.Till my tummy is aching.
Jaren says that I should take PainKiller.(he's trying hard to be funny)

Laughters sound nice most of the time.
but how about genuine laughters?
the kinds that you really cannot control yourself.
it get to the stage that
you feel like...

Rolling on the floor.
Slapping someone.
Banging your head against the wall.
Stomping your foot.
and the list goes on and goes.
Well.in the end.your tummy hurts like crazy.and tears of joy started flowing down.
and everyone will laugh again. (SHIT!)

Genuine laughters are happy tunes.
but they could be the most awful noise too.
it so genuine that u showed your hidden side.

Pam said that my genuine laughter sound like "organsm" (stupid.she is being hentai again.I've to "google wikipedia and dictionary" to find out the meaning of that word since no one refuse to tell me.)
Cherlyn genuine laughters gt the ascending and decending pitch. (damn irriating.haha)
and Pam genuine laughters sound like crows yarking.(hahahahaha.really okay.)
Well, Jaren is pretty composed so we only get to hear the usual nice laughters from him and not the awful genuine one.

This boy is a Vietnamese.damn adoarble.
know why?
cause his dad is real cute.haha.

He's listening to his(erm.shld be his cute daddy) Ipod.
Well.he loves the latern hanging at our counter.
but he kept calling it balloon.
haha.so cute.
He doesnt understand English or Mandarin.
So i speak broken Jap to him(he dont understand also.DUH.he's a Vietnamese what! )
I told him"anata wa kawaii desu ne!"
he look at me with that confused look.
I repeat only the word kawaii over and over again.
finally, he respond. he said: KAWAII!
HAHA.

Little cute boy is love.

Airport interns are L-O-V-E. =D
Lets go Botanic Garden or Treetop Trails for Picnic okay! (after we hand in portfolio)
oh.meet up for steamboat on CNY too.
and Jaren wants MAHJONG. (hehe.i also want!)

I'm scared of all the possibilities as well as impossibilities.
its scary yet I've to think of it once,twice and thrice.
the pondering is meaningless yet it couldnt stop.
I wish that it'll soon be over.

paradise seeker.

2008-01-22T01:00:00.000+08:00

Work started early in the morning 5.45am.
and Elmo almost failed to wake me up. =(

Headed for Jap class in the evening.

oh.that is watashi wa sensei desu. kirei desu ne.
and she loves calling me MA-chan.
haha.

and we're pretty disturbed by this notice.
its like so moronic.
and the fine is $1.00 (like who cares la!)
Pam started asking sensei whether is hokkein allowed anot. (FUNNY LA U)

and my sweetest girl send me a mms again.

Xuan: Do i look like ahsiao or is it ok to tie like this.hahahah hahahahah!

haha.cmon.dont you think that she looks adorable?

anyway.xuan.u really dont look like a mad woman though u behave like one. (hehehe. still, love you la okay.)

Well.and that explain why she's my sweetest yummy oh-so-delicious girl.she just posted this on her blog. =D

A few mths back.smth happened at MotherGarden (MG). Well.I've already left MG (cause of internship.) She called and confided in me like how she always do when we are still working together. and yes. I'm pretty stunned. and was really happy.

After the very long talk, I sent her a text with the above message.
Yes.I'm really happy that she still find it possible to confide in me though i dont have a clue what is going on.

My dearest Xuan, though I am like always busy and yadayadayada.
like what i wrote in the letter, (the one i send you on xmas! u still kept it dont you? better nod your head) please dont ever forget that I'll be there by your side whenever you need me alright.
=)
and sorry girl, my schedule for this week is really scary. all the deadlines is creeping up without me knowing.
next week! i'll make time for you.tell me your busy schedule too. we can have "liang ren shi jie" (shit,my hanyupinyin sucks).

and you are damn cute can. i cant believe you've been refreshing my blog for the last 30mins.

As always, you're still

as silly as always.
as dumbo as always.
as scatterbrain as always.
as paranoid as always.
as self-conscious as always.
and
yes.
as sweet as always.

u know how much i love you. =D (Smile when you read this post okay.)

Well.Similar things always happen around the same time.
was chatting with Keat.

keat says:
hey
keat says:
if u are feeling down
keat says:
will u share it with me?
keat says:
( lets say )

maLtidadada. says:
if you are in an okay mood.yah.i will.
maLtidadada. says:
if nt.no.why add on to your troubles,you see?

maLtidadada. says:
hey keat.
maLtidadada. says:
can i ask the same ques back to u?

keat says:
hmm.
keat says:
my problems are always
keat says:
very complicated u know

maLtidadada. says:
problems are always complex.if they are that simple.they arent called problems already.
maLtidadada. says:
haha

keat says:
true.
keat says:
well my ans i yes i guess

keat says:
and
keat says:
probalby the first too

Well Keat.
U cant possibly know how surprised I am by that last sentence.
but yes, it really caught me off guard.
Though there was once when you told me that.but well,I always thought that it is coincidental.

It's really surprising cause u gotta admit that we dont really know each other that well.and yah.
we seldom talk about serious or private stuff.

we send each other songs.
we sing-along online.
we played stupid games. (well, more of u playing along with my stupid games)
we talked in a way that is rather strange. (dont you think that we're pretty weird?haha)

but well.talking to you have always make me really DELIRIOUS (or do you rather i use the word GAY?)

There is this special feeling which is rather unexplainable and indescribable(perhaps due to my limited vocab) when someone shared the tugging nagging thoughts in their mind.
no matter how silly.stupid.nonsensical.complex. the problem may deem to be.
after all that is said

Its like...
the problem doesnt seem to exist like before.
u know.
everything will be fine in the end.
in one way or another.

Wells.thanks for everything, everyone.

=D

Out of sight, out of time, away from all lies.

2008-01-20T22:16:00.001+08:00

Boshy woke me up this morn by nibbling my little finger and toes. (damn annoying, lucky he gt a pretty and cute face.)
haha.I woke up and wanted to charge my hp.its only left with 0.5energy?
but the tip of my hp charger is GONE... (argh!)

I realized the importance of a charger.
whats the point of having a hp when you dont have a charger?

but yah.

what the point of having a charger when you dont have a hp?

this is like...

the story of which comes first? the egg or the hen?

Well.to me.
I think it is the egg.

I like picturing Adam and Eve taking care of an egg till it is hatch rather than they searching the forest for a hen.

=)

I felt pretty uneasy.
and so I ring girlfriends up.(we all stay near each other.)
Jodie, as usual.didnt pick up the phone.her phone is always on slient mode.haha.
Alesia said she got a cupboard full of charger.most prob there'll be one for me. (yay!)

and so I went over to her place. (Happily)

We used to play all sorts of stupid games outside her house after school. (oh! actually.erm.we still do)

HELLO SCOTTIE! U LOOKS SO CUTE NOW. (he looks like a werewolf last time.)

I always love her full length mirror.it rocks. =D

and I saw this family portrait in the living room.she looks damn gorgeous. (my cam sucks.it makes her looks plumper even though she is real slim.)

we ate.we talked.we played.we fooled around for awhile. =D

and I went off to meet mummy at Chinatown.

it was drizzling for a little while. (the rain feels good)

Chinatown Food Street.

Mummy and I
ate my fav Nhong Hiang.
drank my fav Ah balling peanuts soup.
Sip my fav coconut. (not to forget.all the named above is her fav too!)

oh.and we people-watched.gossip about some random stuff too.
oh.and no doubt.of course mummy nagged too.

Mummy never been to the Buddha Tooth Relic Temple. so I brought her there!
She's very amazed.
oh. I wore shorts which is a big no-no.
there are dress codes to be followed. (most religious places have that)
and so, the nice lady working there passed me a brown robe to put on. and it goes all the way to my heels.

I looked quite amusing for like half an hr can. haha. its like matching scarf with a brown robe.haha.

the pretty little lanterns admist those red tiny leaves. (it looks romantic yah.)

my all-time fav stall! love the potato salad and those mouth-watering sausages.the man tending the stall is really funny.love his sense of humour (he has been working there since I patronize the stall!)

I brought 15bucks worth of those. =) (Indubitable, Mummy nags again)

and so to pacify her. I brought her a lil pig.it damn cute.all you have to do is to soak it in water for an hr.and tada! grass will grow out of its cute head over maybe 3mths!

this man here is really interesting.
he's selling bunny that can dance on its own.
Well, it can even obey your instructions.
For eg: If you say right, it will dance to its right.
If you say down, it will fall down.
hehehehehe.
the most interesting part is that he not gonna tell you how the whole thing works.
and how you are able to command the bunny.
unless
you buy the bunny from him!

Mummy refuse to let me buy =(

oh.and when we are walking on.we overheard a group of people saying:
"the wedding car is here already.lets go see! hurryhurryup!"
being such a nose parker by nature, Mummy and I are damn excited. we followed that group of nose-parker too. =)

The lady with more jasmines on her hair is the bride. =)

Its a long day.
but I like going out with mummy.
Tml will be a long day too.
work.jap.and every little other things also.

shit.its 3am,

2008-01-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

Yes.Its 3am on a nice 20th Jan 2008 Morning.
and I just came back from the airport.
and I'm feeling rather groovy.
Weird.

and suddenly.I dont feel like wearing my ultra big tee and FBT shorts to sleep.
so I searched and turned my whole cupboard upside down for this:

Yes.that's my one and only nightdress.(I know its childish,stop laughing can)
but its really cute.when you wear it, your mood will automatically be lifted up.its like magic.

=D

stupid.its 3am.and I'm sitting infront of the com doing such moronic stuff.
argh.so nutty.argh again.

i shall go sleep now.tml's off. =)